Greetings dear ones! As I write this, I look back on a week of
extreme weather phenomena--floods in Queensland Australia, a heat wave in
Argentina, the New York blizzard and Britain's coldest winter on record. And I
look back too, on a year of weather catastrophes, above all, the Pakistan
floods, one of the worst natural disasters in history. Many Pakistani villagers
face a mountain winter without food supplies, blankets or housing. Oxfam is
still supplying one and a half million Pakistanis with water, while admitting
they are meeting only a fraction of the need. Many of us by now are getting the
message that human-caused climate change implies more than warmer weather.
Looking
forward, I see a year in which the human population is expected to top the
seven billion mark. Seven billion humans wreaking havoc on the environment and
competing for scarce resources! Seven billion human beings, each one infinitely
precious, each unique, each a potential gift of hope to the future!I contemplate the essential paradox of
these two sentences. Population is a complex topic, not susceptible to pat
answers. Wealthy nations have a larger environmental impact due to greater
consumption, whereas people in poor nations impact endangered species as a direct
result of hunger and lack of education. The carbon footprint of an average
American is much greater that that of an average Indian, yet the poor of the
world are suffering the effects of climate change today, without ever having
reaped the benefits of life in the developed world.
If there are
'too many' of us, why give our time and money to lengthen lives by improving
healthcare and nutrition? From the pragmatic perspective, the answer is that
the Malthusian checks of war, famine and epidemics wreak social havoc, and social
havoc is dangerous for the human and natural environment. Improved education
and lower infant mortality naturally lead to lower birthrates, in turn causing
population to plateau and then fall, in a more harmonious way. From the spiritual
perspective, the answer is simple. As I cherish my own life, health and
wellbeing, so I cherish the life, health and wellbeing of each one of the seven
billion humans who are not separate from myself. A hungry child in Pakistan is
my own hungry child. A cold and desperate street person is my very self. If one of us is suffering, all of us suffer. We
are all one.
It
is so inherent to see ourselves as the centre of our own universe. Yet the
child going to bed hungry tonight, the mother in the refugee camp with no clean
drinking water, the person dying of AIDS alone in a hut with nothing to eat but
UN rations--each one is as special as we are, as precious as we are, each one
has the same dreams, the same hopes, the same potential as we do. Take a moment
to think of your greatest heroes or heroines. Where would we be without these
great souls? And now remember that today, a child with the potential to be the
next Alexander Fleming, the next Mahatma Gandhi, the next Rosa Parks, the next
Vanadana Shiva, may die from malnutrition or preventable disease.
The unique needs of the poor, whether in our own city or
developing nations on the other side of the world, will never be met adequately
by governments or large NGOs.Private philanthropy, people helping people, working through grassroots
organizations, has the greatest potential to provide the poor of the world with
a decent human life. Following the financial debacle of 2008, many of us have
seen our retirement savings dwindle, our benefits cut, our incomes reduced. Some
of us live from paycheck to paycheck while others of us no longer have a
paycheck at all. Some have had to put off retirement; some have been laid off
when we still need to work. Many in the US, myself included, have no protection
from catastrophic illness. Facing these altered circumstances, it may be hard
to recognize how immensely privileged we are compared to the rest of the world.
However hard-up we may feel ourselves to be, we can spare something for those
who have nothing. As citizens of our municipality, we have a duty to the hungry
and homeless in our midst. As citizens of the world, we have great
responsibility for the poorest members of our global community. Food for
others, like food for ourselves, must be a non-negotiable expenditure.
As one of the soon-to-be Seven Billion, I
am a part of the problem. As a resident of the developed world, I am a
disproportionally large part of the problem. And as a visionary and
philanthropist, I am a part of the solution, and hope that my positive influence
will be much greater than a seven-billionth part. Please join us in our efforts
at private philanthropy by participating in Alandi Ashram's Peace Push for
Pakistan, in collaboration with Global Greengrants, an organization that unites
donors and activists across the globe in their shared passion for social and
environmental justice. To help Pakistan's victims of climate change catastrophe,
please visit http://www.greengrants.org/get-involved/special-campaigns/
Dear friends, I wish each and every one
of you a peaceful, healthy and blessed New Year. Let's make 2011 the year we
take our world back through compassionate action!
Winter sun sets on East Anglian salt marshes Sodium lamps pool golden on the snow Candles glow in ancient chapel As childish treble intones 'Once in royal David's city.' I listen While morning light breaks in crisp cold air Setting foothills aflame And squirrels wake and scurry on the roof.
Memories of sixty Christmases Are layered like tissue paper Each holding its gift of sorrow or joy. The tiny babe lying in incubator Seeking life's wondrous star The one year old gazing in awe At her first Christmas tree The nativity play where I was Mary And baby sister Katy was Jesus. Helping Dad stretch paper chains Across the sitting room Setting out sherry and mince pies for Santa Hanging up my stocking And pretending to be asleep When Dad came in to fill it.
The year Mum was in intensive care And I shed tears into the mince pie mix, And the time I wrapped everything In pink and purple tissue paper. Indian Christmas at Ramakrishna mission Doing puja to Christ Desert Christmas, eating with the homeless In Tuscon Arizona. Ipswich Christmases with Mum and Dad Around log fire
And candlelight service
At Mary le Tower church, Boulder Christmases Walking in a foot of snow To Thomas Aquinas on the Hill For Midnight Mass Where Netanya took communion
Thinking it was kiddish. Lighting a candle for Dad At Methodist carol service And praying he would live Until we said farewell.
Today I unwrap these memories As choir sings Ding dong merrily, Thinking of those long gone Grandpa's secular Home Office cards Nutcracker ballet with Granny And Nanny listening to Queen's speech. One day I too will be a Christmas memory Wrapped in gold tissue paper And somebody perhaps will shed a tear Remembering a little babe who found her wondrous star And let her light shine forth.
The Winter Solstice eclipse was a dramatic event in terms of my own chart, by Western Astrology at least. The eclipse, on the Galactic anti-centre, was opposite my Mercury, which is right on Galactic Centre. Meanwhile, Uranus, planet of erratic events, surprises and sudden changes, innovation and individuation, was square (challenging 90 degree aspect) to both the eclipse and my natal mercury, setting off a T-cross. Suffice it to say that this event offered challenge, change and innovation within my consciousness and mind.
So there was the somewhat nervous anticipation of the event, the actual lived event, and now the event seen in the rear-view mirror, as I share it with you. With the eclipse conveniently occurring on Monday night, we enjoyed our usual weekly Vedic fire ceremony and bathing of the Shiva lingam. Our Naropa crowd was gone for the holidays and it was just the three Pujaris, Katherine, Sadananda and myself. After meditation we took delicious South Indian prasadam. I was quite surprised to find myself rather peaceful and not getting into any erratic Uranian moods!
Later that night, Sadananda and I went back in the temple and chanted Om namah shivayah for an hour, into the time of the eclipse. However, we didn't stay up past twelve thirty. The interesting part happened next. I took Madhav Nidhan, a classical Ayurvedic text, to bed with me! While Sadananda was brushing his teeth, I was reading Ayurvedic pathology. And as I look in the rear-view mirror, I see that this was in fact the great and anticipated Event--just sitting in bed in my brushed cotton nightgown reading a book that I would never have seen as bed-time reading. Indeed, Uranus was illumining my mind with insights into the ancient text. In this darkest of dark nights, the light of Ayurvedic wisdom was flooding my consciousness. During an aspect, Uranus square natal mercury, when I was challenged to individuate my consciousness, I received a clear message that I was individuating as a vessel of Ayurvedic wisdom in twenty- first century America.
Sometimes a seemingly trivial event can be of great significance when we reflect upon it.
Looking back on this year of my second Saturn return, I see that events unfolded in quite an unexpected way. Nothing I had learned prepared me for these developments.
Astrologically, I had come to see the cycles of Saturn as markers of the Four Ashramas or Vedic stages of life. During the first Saturn cycle we are learning, studying and developing our skills, so this stage of life is somewhat similar to the brahmacharya stage of life. From our first Saturn Return, around age twenty nine, we begin to engage fully in our householder life, raising children and contributing to society. This corresponds to grihast ashrama. As we come to our second Saturn Return, at age fifty eight, we are confronted by the journey of aging. With children grown, it's time to look towards retirement, which for the Vedas does not mean golf and cruises but rather a life of contemplation, vanprasth ashrama. And if we live until our third Saturn return at age eighty seven it is surely time to leave the world behind as we look to eternal realities: final renunciation or sannyas beckons. My studies of Spriritual Eldering with Reb Zalman Schachter only served to re-inforce this perspective. The elder years are for contemplation and the cultivation of the inner life.
Of course, in my own case, cultivation of the inner life began from as early as I can remember. I do recall 'inventing' meditation as a teenager, and I say inventing because there was nobody in my provincial East Anglian town to point the way, so I came up with my own methods, later to find they were Zen meditation! And during my first Saturn Return, I committed to the Vanprastha life!
So what did Lord Shani have up his sleeve for the second Saturn Return? The first surprise came when our second year students in AlandiAyurvedaGurukula refused to leave school. These dedicated students, with no financial aid and a very demanding programme, wouldn't leave school because they did not see fifteen hundred hours as enough education to be a 'real doctor'! As a result, the year of Saturn Return found me creating and inaugurating a four year Ayurveda programme with depth of training similar to that of Doctors in other health fields. This of course led to more credithours for me to teach each week and more new classes to prepare. And just in case I didn't get the message, this year also saw me elected to the Board of NAMA, the National Ayurvedic Medical Association. And on a reassuring note, I had a heart scan which showed, unusually at my age, no calcification at all in the coronary arteries. A new definition of 'young at heart' and a vindication of Ayurvedic diet!
At the very age when one might expect that I would be looking forward to retirement, second Saturn Return brought much greater levels of engagement that I have known before. I'm committing to spend this third trip around Saturn's orbit fully involved in teaching and developing Ayurveda. Of course, life brings many unexpected twists and turns. I might become too physically or cognitively impaired, or too involved in care-giving, to continue this course of action for whole Saturn Cycle. I might die....at any time, for nobody knows when Death will come. Or climate-change-related chaos might throw all plans into disarray. I do not know what actors wait in the wings to thicken the plot of my life. But this I do know: Saturn has invited me to an ever-deeper commitment to teaching and passing on the wisdom of Ayurveda--and I have heeded the call.
I embrace my changing body Contours growing more generous Face more lined The silver in the hair The names I can't recall Words that just won't come. And with the curiosity of a twelve year old schoolgirl Staring at the bigger girls Wondering if I too will have such shapely legs Instead of little sticks I look today at elders Thinking, "Will this be me?" I embrace my changing body With joy, for it is mine And I am fortunate To live so long.
And I embrace our changing world The emptying villages Shrinking forests Shifting coastlines Dwindling shoals of fish In sorrow for these human imprints I embrace our changing world With courage, for it is mine To heal and to protect.
I embrace our changing culture All that attends the fall of civilizations Nuclear weapons at the ready Armies occupying cradle of civilization Tanks in slums Riot police fighting protesters Governments shoring up banks. Pledging to walk in peace I embrace change with dread and yet conviction May the phoenix rise from the flames!
Impermanent, this body, these cultures and this earth For all must pass! I embrace change with equanimity Rooted in the Changeless
Hanukkah candles beside log fire in Wales And birthday cake made by nieces Shed rays of light into year Made sombre by Dad's anniversary. We scatter his ashes in River Aeron And travel next day to Aberaeron Where his mortal remains met the sea. Home just in time to be snowbound for days In tiny village.
In Mum's new Kesgrave home We light Sabbath candles With elderly Jewish neighbour Who won't believe in G-d Because she's angry with Him. Snowed up at Gatwick airport We watch B movies in Hotel room As hares hop round manor grounds. Treasures in our backpacks Two Ipswich snowscapes by Dad To adorn our Boulder ashram.
Sadananda, so lately covered with Dad's ashes Like baker with fine flour, Undergoes metamorphosis, Develops photographer wings Takes on Dad's artist mantle. Inspired, I reawaken Skills learnt at father's knee After unwrapping Baby Brownie On my sixth birthday.
In this year of Saturn Return I connect with ancestral guides Discovering the Dark Lady My great-great grandmother And realize I truly am a child of Abraham My great-grandfather's name. Seeking the dead, I find the living Meet newly-discovered cousins. My sense of family grows in Saturn's arms.
There are other ancestral journeys To a land Abraham never knew A walled town beneath the Dolomites And the sleepy village of Familglia Rech. Here in the parocchia My beloved's bloodline Revealed in elegant script.
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Spiritual ancestors too Are met anew this year I rededicate to love, simplicity and oneness At tombs of Francis and Clare.
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Gatwick again, no delays this time Just a very excited niece On her first trip to America. A whirl of swimming, ice cream, hiking Navajo reservation Gourd dance And dusty desert pilgrimage To Shiprock, pillar of light.
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Back at Alandi Ashram A dozen goddesses dressed in white Offer rose petals to Sarasvati Studies begin in earnest As Ayurvedic mysteries unfold To depths rarely plumbed in Western lands.
Autumn brings harvest Golden gourds and pumpkins And flames of sacred fire Arising for the Mother. Sorrow, tears and prayers For floods in Pakistan Patience and frustration interweaving As we seek ways to help.
Hanukkah lights twinkle again We pray shehekhianu Blessed are you, Most High one Who has preserved me To see another birthday Gratitude for a year when no loved ones died No limbs were broken, Held safe in Saturn's arms Commitments renewed and deepened I go forward in joy and equanimity To meet afresh the unknown moments.
This season of dark nourishes me. Creativity germinates beneath rotting leaves Poems sprout in frosty soil Inner journeys unfold. Driven within By chilly nights I seek the inner spark.
In this time of waiting Birth of Divine child I nourish Him, the Prince of Peace With heart's warm blood.
Honour the dark For it is only in the darkness That the candle shines.
The last couple of days, the bomb blast in Varansi has been one of the main things on my mind. For Sanantan Hindu Dharma, Varanasi, also known as Kashi, the city of light, is the Centre of the Mandala. In the flood of dissolution at the end of the Age,Varanasi is said to remain untouched, held aloft on Shiva's trident. Thus it is the City Indestructible, a beacon of light for all.
In this beautiful spot, evening arati was being performed to Ganga Ma (River Ganges) at Dasashvamedha Ghat when the bomb went off, killing a little girl and injuring twenty others, some critically. It was heartbreaking to think of this act of violence occurring in such a sacred place and at such a holy time. Yet as reported by Central Chronicle, the people have remained calm and there had been no outbreak of communal violence. The peace-loving Muslims of Varansi and Uttar Pradesh are not being made to pay for the actions of a few extremists.
When I see one religious group targeting another in the way innocent worshipers, tourists and children were targeted Tuesday, it reminds me of how important it is that we overcome these divisions and separations. So often we try to make peace through war, to impose peace through occupation. Yet war and occupation can never bring peace because peace is inseparable from liberty and justice. As Pope John XXII said, the four pillars of peace are truth, justice, love and liberty. Peace will come only when we respect those who differ from us just as we do those who share our views. Our hope of peace will perish just as the tender little girl perished in the bomb blast, unless we reach into our common humanity and share love and support beyond these divisions. We saw an example of this recently when both Turkey and the Palestinian Authority came to the aid of Israel during the forest fire. When we reach beyond our divisions, we sow vital seeds of peace.
Creation, like a prism Fragments the pure white light of truth And folk in different lands Catching sight of different colours Have taught that, 'it is green', Or 'it is gold.' Today, from the seeds of light Scattered over the earth We reap a rainbow harvest.
Allah the merciful the compassionate, Have mercy on us!
Have mercy on us who live in refugee camps Caught between two armies. Have mercy on us whose villages are flooded Whose crops are lost Who shiver under canvas Who return home to wreckage.
Have mercy on us In the forest fire Charred homes and lost possessions. Have mercy on us in the slums of Rio and Mumbai And have mercy on us too, In billion dollar mansions, Beset by arrogance and family feuds.
Have mercy on us whose livestock starve, Whose fields are parched Whose bellies are empty. Have mercy on us who pick through refuse dumps Who sell our bodies and are sold Who toil in sweatshops And have mercy on us too in the boardroom And the chauffeured Rolls Royce.
O God of mercy and compassion You know our fears, our despair, You know our greed and arrogance Our headstrong ways. Have mercy on us For we have sown the wind and reaped the whirlwind. As we endure the earthquake, flood and fire Speak to us, O still small voice Bring us back to the heart.
Can I look you in the eye And listen without interrupting? Can I look you in the eye Without judgment? Can I look you in the eye And not say, "Yes, I know" ? Can I look you in the eye Steadily, without nodding? Can I look you in the eye Without trying to fix you? Can I look you in the eye And receive your pain? Can I look you in the eye Fearlessly? Can I look you in the eye In naked presence Heart meeting heart. Can I offer you my silent hospitality, The gaze of empathy?
Miracles upon miracles, Miracles reflecting miracles.
This is the day When the eyes of the blind are opened The ears of the deaf unstopped, When the lame man runs like a deer And the tongue of the dumb sings for joy.
Miracles upon miracles Miracles reflecting miracles. The light in your heart brightening mine The light in my heart igniting yours Miracles upon miracles Miracles reflecting miracles.
Miracle seen Only in darkness Miracle heard Only in howling wind Miracle felt Only in biting cold Miracle of joy Known within despair Behold, the dry land shall blossom!
Miracles upon miracles Miracles reflecting miracles. Light in our hearts Brightening hearts of all Flame of our radiant lives Setting all lives afire Miracles of love and healing Gushing streams in the desert!
Hanukkah is about rekindling, reconsecration, bringing back the light. In devastation, light returns. Without destruction, without desecration, there would be no Hanukkah miracle. It is our desolate places that call out for warmth and radiance, the darkness of our despair that invites the light of the menorah.
It is a dark time for our planet, our ecosystems and our civilization. Catastrophic climate change is underway and escalating, yet our response as a species is weak and hesitant. We are like a patient with a life-threatening illness refusing to take our medicine because it tastes bitter. Can we find our Hanukkah miracle of global cooperation, respecting the earth and the future of our children? It lies within our soul, we have only to awaken.Will light emerge from this time of unprecedented darkness?
The Hanukkah lights are warrior lights, celebrating victory and freedom. The Maccabees had only one resource, faith, as they took on the might of empire and warlords. In our time, can we break free of the imperial power sway of our military-industrial carbon based economy and come together as one people? Can we take our earth back as the Maccabees took their homeland back?
A red dawn welcomes me to the month of my birth. December, time of leafless trees and frozen soil, Month of darkness Month of candles.
Month of expectancy Of gathering round the Advent candle Telling stories and opening tiny glittered doors For the people who walked in darkness Have seen a great light.
Month of birthday candles Rich iced fruitcake Blowing and making a wish Tearing tissue paper to reveal the gift.
Month of wandering twilit streets Each lace curtained bay window Aglow with Christmas tree lights And sparkling tinsel.
Month of holly and candles Reflecting in stained glass windows As tremulous boy soprano Sings of lowly cattle shed.
Month of blazing yule log Teacakes speared on toasting fork Biting into crumpet Butter running down chin.
Month of deepening darkness Of growing Hanukkah lights Reflecting on brass menorah Shiny chocolate gelt Melting in sticky palm.
Month of yartzheit candles Of waiting at bedside Holding frail hand Daughter midwifing father Into another world.
December, month of my birth Month of my father's death Month of darkness Month of hope Season of candles As the sun dies And the light is reborn.